Moronic Conundrum

px wishes that sometimes he could just blend in and pretend that he is a normal person.
but he can't

what must px do?
life sucks for px.
he feels as though he doesn't belong anywhere.
No one will be able to understand px because not even px understands himself.

px is just an annoying prick but he really is kind-hearted in nature.
px simply wants people to understand, but in all his attempts to communicate and open up to others, he always end up making a fool of himself and getting misunderstood.

the world is terrible and px knows that. it seems to him that everything he does is wrong and that every single thing opposes him, and that all things moving are created so as to bring as much misery to his life.

px doesn't have the guts to kill himself and so he simply wishes to just die in an accident. everyday passes like a blur... what a pointless existence. he feels as though the food he eats is simply wasted. seriously, why waste food on a being so worthless and uncared for?

if only everything would stop and listen perhaps.... no.
there is probably no hope